Day 366/366 - Good Riddance, 2012
I know, I know - I should be ending this blog on a positive note. LOL
But let’s face it - 2012 mostly sucked for me:
- I spent 6 1/2 months of the year unemployed… and the last 2 1/2 months I spent employed were at a terrible place.
- I ended up having to miss three - THREE - concerts that I had already bought tickets for and was looking forward to: Nice Peter in April, because the Digitour and Neuro suck major ass; Fitz and the Tantrums in September, because the show was on my second day of work at the Terrible Place, and I didn’t want to come into my third day of work exhausted; and Rush (RUSH!!!) in October, because my dog was about to die, and did. I had never missed a concert that I already had tickets to in my life - and this year I missed three. Including a fucking Rush show, which I never thought would ever happen.
- My “best friend” and I “broke up”, as it were.
- My mother went into the hospital with a burst appendix, and came out diagnosed with colon cancer.
- My grandfather went into the hospital, and never came out.
- My dog died, fairly suddenly.
2012 can blow me.
That said, there were good moments too - I got closer to other friends when my so-called best friend walked out of my life. I met some great people and made some new friends at the Terrible Place, which was quite literally the only good part of that job. I managed to get a refund on my Digitour ticket, plus a refund for my Greyhound fare to Buffalo for the Rush show. It is believed that all of my mother’s cancer was removed when it was initially found, and the chemo she was on was only just in case - and since then, it has been decided that she no longer needs chemo. I didn’t spend the entire year unemployed. I wasn’t homeless or seriously ill. I discovered Cards Against Humanity and Doctor Who.
Annnnnd… I completed my second Project 365 in a row!
Thanks to those of you who have stuck around again this year - thanks for putting up with my disappointingly boring life and my, uh, erratic posting schedule :-P I am definitely going to start that Reverse 365 Project next year (aka tomorrow); I just haven’t entirely decided where I’m going to post. So tomorrow you’ll either see a new post here starting the new project, or a post with the link to the new project. We shall see!
I will also be starting the “Good Moments In A Jar” project (lol) tomorrow (or whenever something good happens), so I’ll likely post updates on that here as well.
Here’s to 2013! It’s gotta be better than this year, right?! ;-P
Day 364/366 - A Jarring Realization
For some reason this afternoon I was struck with the horrifying realization that I may only ever be able to truly move forward in my life if I learn to drive.
Why is this horrifying?
Because I am terrified of learning to drive.
I have no problem with being in a car when someone else is at the wheel, but the idea of me being behind the wheel of a 1000-pound death machine? NO THANKS o_O
It just sucks, because driving may really be the ONLY way for me to get where I want to be. Relying on public transit limits my job opportunities. When I am working, the commute is part of what makes the week so exhausting - I’ve mentioned here before that I really need downtime to be happy, and depending on my work hours and the length of the commute, that downtime can be extremely limited. Then there’s the fact that, for a very long time now, I have wanted to move out of the Greater Toronto Area, or at the very least, leave Mississauga. I’ve lived here my entire life, and while I do like the city… I’m also tired of it. I want to go somewhere new, somewhere out of my comfort zone. And that is really hard to do when you don’t have a way of getting there.
But then there’s the fact that I’m terrified of driving.
Hell, even if I could somehow get past that fear long enough to even try learning, I’d still need the money for the classes, and the test, and gas… and then eventually a car of my own, and upkeep, and insurance, and gas… how the hell am I going to afford that when I can’t even afford to move out of my parents’ house without a car?
Day 361/366 - Change of Plans?
So, as I’ve mentioned here before, I’ve had no intention of doing another Project 365 next year. I’ve done it for two years straight, and I need a break. Plus, as we all know, my life is not particularly interesting, which makes it tough to do daily posts. I decided a while ago that I wanted to do the whole "put happy moments in a jar and then read them at the end of the year" thing next year, and I still totally intend to do that - I’ve already bought the jar at the dollar store, so now I’m committed :-P
But the other day I was reading through Photojojo’s Photo Ideas For The New Year, and the last one on the list really interested me: The Reverse 365 Project. Basically, instead of posting a new photo of the generally mundane aspects of life every day, you post old photos from your archives that you haven’t shared before. I find this particularly appealing because I have TONS of unshared photos that I haven’t even organized yet, much less edited & shared. I’ve been meaning to work on organizing my photography archives for a long-ass time now anyways - maybe the Reverse 365 will be the kick in the pants I need to actually DO it?
Really, my biggest concern is not being able to post every day. Ironically, I worry that I’ll end up with more of a backlog than I have in previous P365s, because the process of culling & editing photos can be time-consuming, especially if you’re working through a large shoot. Augh. I don’t know. I also don’t know if I’d want to post the project here on this blog, or over on my “photography business” blog/Flickr account (I say “business” because the sucker is dead in the water. lol)… I was considering posting the photos on Flickr and then making the blog posts here, but I’m never sure how much I want to mix my business “reputation” with my personal life. I may very well do it over at the “business” blog, and I’ll just post the link to the full blog here? Of course, my business has my full name in it… Bleh. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOO.
Day 357/366 - The Frustration Continues…
… but now it’s not just my arm.
No, now it’s also my head. I’ve had a non-stop headache since about 12:30 yesterday afternoon, so as of this writing, it’s been going for approximately 33 1/2 hours o_O Granted, it hasn’t been nearly as bad as it was yesterday - and neither has my arm, actually - but still… annoying. Especially since I’d intended to indulge in some adult beverages this evening. lol Since its better today (but still there), hopefully it’ll clear up by tomorrow?